of clouds that drift
apart, reshape their puzzle pieces, and coalesce into new
geographies of air
within one windblown hour? No one can map the sky's
quicksands.
Open the atlas,
and you will see only color photographs of clouds, their
Latin names,
genus, species, features,
and then the place, day, month and year, even the hour
and minute at which
some cloud fanatic, some paparazzo covering the cirrocumuli
and other
high society, snapped
their unposed pictures: "Scattered Cumulus Along a
Squall Line,"
a cirrus's coiffeur
in serious disarray, the mother clouds, dust devils, halo
phenomena, coronas,
glories, nacreous and noctilucent clouds, virga, fallstreaks
of rain
that evaporate before
they touch the ground, all these special effects alongside
ordinary hazy days
through which the sun's bright shadow cuts, altostratus
translucidus.
Underneath each plate are the photographer's initials and
last name, and always
what direction
he was facing. Isn't there an unintended poignancy in
almost every
caption? "A.J. Aalders,
Bussum, Netherlands, first of October, 1935, oh-six-
hundred-
fifty-seven hours,
towards the southeast: Stratus in Ragged Shreds." In his
photo
clouds blow like smoke
from heavy artillery fire above the outline of a few wind
shaken
yew trees and someone's
roof with two chimneys. The risen sun is barely visible,
the smudged
period of a child's
first fountain pen in a copybook left out in the rain. The
clouds are
words that have bled
across the unlined page. Innocent of history, the
meteorologist's
caption reads,
"Disturbances were crossing Western Europe from east
to west that day."
And what direction am I facing, sunning on my back deck,
doing nothing
but writing this one poem
and watching all summer long the clouds form
and reform,
how a cumulus's beehive hairdo comes undone, airy acrobat
to the prevailing wind's
least whim? Most mornings it's a chaotic sky, clouds at
many levels,
low broken combers of cumulus,
the rippled dunes of altocumulus undulatus, highflying
cirrus vertebratus,
a fish skeleton picked clean by the northwest wind. Aren't
we too
a bare spine with ribs
of ice crystals and water vapor mixed, condensed around
particles
of dust? Don't we too
shine in the west? I am facing my fourth decade and the
first year
of our third millennium, pileup
of late afternoon's cumulonimbus coming at us out of the
south, spikes
of lightning driven
home from heaven to earth, God's Instamatic flash,
where eternity opens
for one five-hundredth of a second, then darkness, the
stammering thunder's
aftermath. "That's the preacher
preaching, and he's not happy with us," says my Southern
Baptist
neighbor. But why
does almost no one look up at the clouds except when bad
weather
rips the sky in half?